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[29 Jun 2004|03:01am] |
There are some truly amazing people in my life, who put up with some truly amazingly messed up shit from my head. Thank you to those people for listening and putting up with me. One day I will give you all something in return...hopefully I can get to that point soon. I realize again that I am falling apart, and that everytime I fall apart...I lose a little piece of myself, a piece with potential. I think I am getting to a point where I can't fall apart many more times without losing myself completemente. For some reason, though, I feel amazingly trapped. For every choice I make there is a choice I am not making...or something bad happening. Maybe something good and something bad. For every action there are at least two and as many as 5,000,000 reactions I think. A big part of me says that making the choice to be happy and solid can't have many negative reactions.
I learn something new about myself from you everyday.
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[16 Jun 2004|02:15am] |
Okay, so...this is not OK. IN the last few months my house has been having some...shall we say..."potato bug problems." We've seen about three in the living room. One in the garage that is gigantic. And we thought this was the worst of our problems. Then we tore down this OLD wooden shed next to our house, and now THE SPIDERS HAVE COME TO LIVE HERE. First we had a "sunspider" or "wind scorpion." This spider had frightening palps on the front and was FAST (like the, uhm, wind.) It haunted us, then we called a man who came and identified it. It had the beak of a squid--which is weird, because ALL pictures of sunspiders have them with 4 beak things. This guy, had serious squid beak. Then today a little fella (not so little...) came running across the living room floor and he is baffling me. He has a large white-ish, tan abdomen. Which right now looks grey, so I am not so sure what's up. He has crazy eyes...but no worries...he isn't a brown recluse or anything. *sigh*. I hate spiders and wild animals in my house. There was also a large, black beetle yesterday.
In short, the infestation is beginning. We listened to the cricket chirping outside...and decided he is the messenger calling the troops to battle. The royal Queen Potatobug in our garage is who they are fighting for--to avenge the loss of her two children.
Egads.
Save me.
Let's hope no poisonous things crawl into my bed.
You have no idea how paranoid I am right now.
If I wanted big, scary animals...I would not live in California. AHHHHH!
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[10 Jun 2004|12:13am] |
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Wow, I just finished reading The Voyage of the Dawn Treader (book 5, Chronicles of Narnia) for the first time. It was so visually stimulating and rewarding to read. Also, it was the most blatant in references to God and Christianity of all the novels so far (I have not read them all before now.) But for some reason, it's so peaceful in the end...that the references are okay. I don't feel angered by them, I feel moved. So moved I got out of bed to write a LJ entry, which makes me think that "being moved" doesn't quite have the meaning it used to :o)
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[08 Jun 2004|05:50pm] |
Okay, so this is the design for my tattoo. It's a re-drawing I did of his rough sketch, so it's not perfect mind you. Also, not the size it will be on me. It scanned ginormous--it's really about 2"x2".
Don't know if it will even show up with my posting photos luck.
I am still trying to decide whether or not I want the inside star to be all black...and my mom keeps yelling at me that it needs color...so I am considering filling in the petals with red (the petals are hearts in case you couldn't tell!)
( Go Here For The Tattoo )
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[07 Jun 2004|04:12am] |
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So, has anyone heard anything about JARED POWELL the tattoo artist at Glass Beetle who will be permanently putting ink into my skin? I mean...it seems like everyone goes to that Sim dude...so...yea, anybody?
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[06 Jun 2004|07:49pm] |
Wow, 60 Minutes just made me cry about RONALD REAGAN. I didn't know it was possible, what with how he was a...well...not so good president and all. But it was possible. I hope I can be as happily married as he was, Nancy and him were the most joyful looking pair I have ever seen.
Ramble, ramble.
Anyway, it's crazy...
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[06 Jun 2004|02:30am] |
Let's see, I don't really have the energy to write much tonight. I saw Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban TWICE on opening day because I am THAT cool. It was my favorite one so far of the movies (and, no, I have not read the books YET...but I am planning on it.) The kids are really growing up nicely, I thought everyone was very attractive. In any case--go see it if you haven't yet. It is very well done, and I have much respect for Alfonzo Cauron (not sure if that is the correct spelling, hrm.) Strange boys gave the lady in the McDonalds drive-thru a rose to give to me when I rolled up (we were getting ice cream.) It was very different, but funny. Tonight I spent at Leslie's house playing Monopoly and Clue with Leslie, Jen Ko, and Will (Leslie's bf.) It was very fun, but I was so tired and out of it that I felt like I had dimensia or something--I was just so clueless. I went to THE GLASS BEETLE and made an appointment to get my TATTOO...July 1st at 2:00! The guy did a really good job on the design--so I am very much excited.
Also, my dog attacked a baby possum in our backyard. It was really cute...and thus very sad to see it immobile...slashed in half. At some point it wandered away (no idea how) and left behind a big blood stain and a tail.
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[02 Jun 2004|09:23pm] |
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I just went on www.thefacebook.com and it said i was logged in from "Theta Delta Chi". BLASPHEMY! I am NOT in a sorority (who knows? that might even be a fraternity), they should not spread these vicious rumors about me. I am currently logged in from a "non-residential location" you crazy facebook. My home is not in the Greek system.
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[29 May 2004|05:22pm] |
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I AM THE WORST GIRLFRIEND EVER.
I AM SO SORRY DAVEY FOR BEING SUCH AN ASSHOLE TODAY.
I AM IMMATURE AND SELFISH.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY! ! ! ! !
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[29 May 2004|02:41pm] |
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Somebody please post why I should have faith in humanity! ! !
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[28 May 2004|12:53am] |
I've pulled myself out of my coma just long enough to say that this man has a squirrel on his head:
yea.
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[26 May 2004|01:30pm] |
So, I went to the E.R. last night. It was no good. I thought (well, we thought...we called our family practitioner and she thought too) that I had meningitis. I also thought I was going to die and I was thinking of all my friends and how I would never see them again--then I was thinking about how I would never get to hold Davey again and how I needed one last chance. It was ugly. But according to Dr. Fong (the best doctor in the world) I have a nasty, nasty, nasty virus that shares many of it's symptoms. He said to come back if I get a stiff neck (really bad, crying bad.) or the obligatory rash--but he said that he would have tested me for it instantly if he had any inkling that I had it. So that's good. Anyway, not really feeling like sitting at the compy so I am going to go...probably back to sleep.
there is good news though:
I got:
Anthro: A
Alt Sex Identities: A- (psh, should be an A...assclowns!!)
English 45c: B+
Nutri Sci 24: P (p/f, one unit class)
That's a 3.85 GPA I do believe.
Woot.
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[23 May 2004|05:52pm] |
Pretty sure I have pneumonia again. That or the flu. Either way I am death warmed over with a slice of lemon.
THIS SUCKKKKSSSS!!!! AHHHH!
let me tell you how it goes:
my whole body aches, deep in the bones--everywhere. my skin also hurts to the touch of anything, and the wind makes it prickle up and that hurts. When I breathe in it feels like my lungs are going to explode. And I know have a sore throat as well (because I had to cough and it made it sore.) I am a real prize, let me tell you.
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[20 May 2004|11:59pm] |
Since I've been home I have found it impossible to stop eating, I've been eating like crazy. It's a cover up because I am VERY MUCH an emotional eater. Badness. *slaps self*
I got a 99 on my anthro final! WOOT! Take that anthropology. I missed one damn point on the whole test--and it was for being too optimistic about what anthro can do for the world. So, A in the class and joy and my GSI said "I hope you strongly consider majoring in anthropology." JOY!
Davey surprised me and we went and saw The Decemberists and The Shins at Davis. It was pretty awesome. The Shins performed...well, well, WELL under par. They were verging on bad. It's too bad since they are amazing. The Decemberists, however, kicked all the ass I expected them to kick. Los Angeles, I'm Yours.
I have been having a low self esteem week, so sorry if I don't talk to you or am anti-social or what have you. It's been rough going in my head the last few days.
I really want to go abroad this summer, but alas, no abroad. davey got my hopes up about going to Greece and that fell flat on it's face. Piss.
Tomorrow is my sister's graduation!! WEE! So, that's where I will be this weekend. Up in Davis/Sacto... where I always am. No surprise I guess!!
I bleached all of my bangs and stuff in the front of my head (yes I have bangs, yes they are now blonde.)
Hope everyone's finals went SUPER GOOD!
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[16 May 2004|09:52pm] |
Life is kind of beautiful. I had an amazing weekend. The guy at Baskin Robbins asked me if I wanted tuna. I had cat ears on, I didn't get it though. Anyway, happy happy. I still have an icky feeling kinda, ah, just under the surface I suppose. Davey and I are going to maybe go look at University of North Carolina--Chapel Hill, for the hell of it. Part of me thinks it'd be easier on me to just not be near Petaluma. Oh well! I hope you are all having a fantabulous weekend, week, life.
I say don't you know? You say you don't know. I say...Take me out.
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[12 May 2004|11:22pm] |
My personality is rated 30.What is yours?</center>quiz by midgetfarm.com
Which means: Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.
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[12 May 2004|08:31pm] |
Do you ever realize how on some level, you are utterly alone?
no good.
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[12 May 2004|02:54am] |
I just ordered a black, femme, zip-up neighborhoodies.com sweatshirt with green letters saying "CHIPMUNK" (what Davey calls me <3) and a green heart on the left pocket.
Finally, after a long talk with the bag of Oreo cookies and a bit of money spending, things are starting to look up...
sort of.
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